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Me.

Oh hello.
My name is miss ong!.
-dance instructor.
-loves dancing/marital arts.
Sunday, June 29, 2008

ok.it's exam tml and yet i didnt study sigh y tis tym i cant concentrate on my studies wher is my movitation iszit cuz of the comment she sent..fuck it i hate it...i just simply cant take those words out of my mind even if i'm sleeping..fuck!!!i hate u!!!y everytym when i wanted to concentrate to do my things you're the one who destroy my day!!4gt it... gtg to meet my bf to study le..hope i can pass at least...hais i'm sry dear to make u disappointed i'm scare i cant gt As...

Thursday, June 26, 2008

ok.
ystd did nt went trg n went to study
met up with sebes.(=
we went study in mac n i saw alot of ppl.
sebes bought mi a double choco.
and e double choco is done by kelvin haa.
ok we chatted and do our notes on fmt
damn lots of things to rmb.
i felt so so happy ystd
sebes gave mi a feelin lyk my buddy
e 1 whom i miss the most.
for a long long time i don hv such feeling alrdy
e feeling is so great.
study and pour our sorrow to each others,
ate breakfast and headed hm ard 6.30am.
i miss my o-level studying period.
it's fun studying with him.
sigh..hv he really know wat i'm thinking.
is all my worries duo yu 1.
hv i given up tis rls?
wat do i want now?
mending up the holes...

Sunday, June 22, 2008

to sebes!!
hey surpirse to see your name rite
haa..
anyway just want to let u noe tt u're nt alone ok
u still gt yy!!
she will b there for u lend u her ears..
don kip thinking abt bad things
don b emo
stay strong!!
in my heart u're a fighter
so u don give up or die easily one!
stand up on your feet agn!
i want to see the old sebes the one tt will joke and play ard sebes
nt de emo sebes!!
cheer up anything just dail my no. ok=)
to my dearest gfs/laopos
thx for being by my side encouraging mi
cant imangine wat wuld my life b nw if i didnt met your
thx for e laughter,saddness we share together!!


dear.
i luv u yes i do.
i just simply hope that deep down in your heart
u truly luv mi.
if u dont pls tell me.
i reali thx you for e encouragement tt u gave mi
the time u spent on mi
the love tt u gave mi during tis 1month.
i reali hope that u can use your heart to tell mi who do u love nw
so that i can end my nightmare.
this is the 1st tym i'm so so scare.
i hv lost so many things and my heart is full of holes
i don wish tt u will leave mi.
u're the one who bring mi out of fear u held mi up when i fall
simply hope that you wont leave mi alone.
seah zhi xin i just wan u to know that
I REALLY LOVE YOU..

Saturday, June 21, 2008

yo.
homed at last feel kinda weak now.
ystd just had 2 hrs of slp nia then wake up early in e morning to go eat with dear
sigh ystd my fever hit 38degree.
and be4 i slp i saw a bettle and i was damn scare i call dar n sigh..
dear i just hope that u can show more care n concern for mi.
went to see doc and ya e bill is 48dollars damn ex.
i burn a hole in my pocket lor..
tml is a study day for mi as i took mc for tml.
wondering who will acc mi go study?
sigh when can i really relax and play i wan my past life back can?
i wan break free of everything!
i wan to drink to destress!
luvin you is a bless bt i'm tired.


hais shag.
recently dono wat has happen to mi feel so shag.
exam nearin n stressin over exam n rls.
wth.
i'm scare of losing u bt i'm tired
argh..
i wan a drink gfs cal mi up ok
so shag having fever and it's 38degree.
having a runny nose n sore throat
fuck y everythings happen at e same!!
fallin apart soon.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

back frm crew outing and its fun.
received msg frm sk and ya my exam result released.
so gan chiong and when i look at my result i stone for a while.
i cant believe i got 2As
i nv ever had As for all my subjects be4 lor.
after tt went to mit dear and acc him hm to change and went to vivo for a walk.
after which i went to mit sister.
dear i really don lyk the feeling.
this type of feeling sux.
i noe your are frens now bt put yourself in my shoes.
if my ex everyday msg mi how wuld u feel.
this feelin is reali unbearable.
gfs i want to hv a drink i wan pour out my sorrows.
can any1 tell mi wat to do.
i'm scare of falling agn.
i'm tired of everythings.
i'm scare of believing.
how i wish i can leave tis world.
pls can any1 guide mi.
i'm lost!

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

back frm camp
and yeah it's fun bt somehow things screw up.
cried on e last day.
had a few hrs of rest onli.
hais i'm reali reali scare.
m i a sub?
do u reali luv mi?
hv u reali 4gotten her?
i'm disappointed with u
u're e 1st bf i make cookies for bt u in return did nt give mi thing.
actually i hv expected it.
i'm confuse and lost.
tears rolling down.
1st tym i cried for u.
y iszit so.
pls end tis sorrow life i hate tis feeling!!!
fallin apart!!
hurt!!

Friday, June 13, 2008

shag shag.
slept for 2 hrs onli todae wth.
i'm damn nervous for my jazz exam.
met xiao xin for breakfast then went off to chinatown.
wah i was so nervous tt i do wrong sigh.
nvm ok rush hm to gt my things done for camp omg is lyk so shag now.
i'm falling soon.
hais cant celebrate 1st month with him so sad.
ps.sry my dear
sigh got to tahan till sun.
after which rush hm change then go out with xiao xin omg.
i bounce to miss him lyk hell argh..

Thursday, June 12, 2008

ok.
break down ystd.
i'm so so tired of my sickening life.
is there some1 out there to help mi and recuse mi!
i feel lyk dying le.
overstress.
ystd i cry in his hug.
feel so so sad n stupid
i reali miss u so so much.
5yrs yet now dont even tok to each other.
i miss u yes i do.
those happy memories.
roses,bdae cake,east coast,np mac,sch time,nite studies tym
y y thing turn to b like tis!!
i'm scare of hearing ppl promising mi things especially to attend my performances
my heart shattered alot of times and is numb le.
you promise to b there bt will u?
my biggest wish is to see you there and with my family.
bt will it ever come true?
i cant stop thinking e days we hang ard toking abt guys gossips and all
i really miss those days.
i miss u so damn lot tkh!!!
i did silly things which made dar unhappy n worried.
seriously i dono y i feel so moody and just tears flow down.
i told him lots of things.
and i cant stop hitting e wall.
i'm sry if i make u unhappy bt is just tt i'm fucking stress abt life.
i'm falling apart!!
superwoman will fall sick n die eventually!
get to know my grandfather hospital bills is 4K omg wher to raise so much money
nw i don even dare to ask parents for money i can only use those frm my saving.
i'm stressing for friday dancing exam.
after that got to stress for camp then after camp my work then exam
totally no life.
i wanna be back a slacker.
i hate to act tough!!
i cant stand it anymore and i cant take it le.
y cant god give mi a good time lyk wat other gals hv.
go out to shopping hang with frens every weekends and all bt mi wat i got!!
i just wanna b a normal gal want to b pamper by parents and bf bt can i?
can some1 teach mi wat to do!!
ystd slp at 6am and went sch till 3.30pm after tt went for pool for a while i cab down
to look for grandfather everytym look at him i feel so guilty
for not being a good granddaughter.
sigh i'm scare of gg hospital i don wish to see another person leaving
i don wan i cant take another blow le.
anyway dear is having is motor exam ltr and wish him all the best!!
and thx my dear for acc mi through out the night i knew u were tired bt u kip mi acc
i'm reali touch!
thx!
煜英♥志鑫

Saturday, June 07, 2008

yo.
it's been a long time since i update
sigh noe that my grandfather is been hospitalise again
ok past 2days mr seah cum to my hse to take a nap haa..
after which he left for sch.
sigh so fast next wk is exam liao.
stress...
taurus the enduring one! hold me tight in your arm 煜英♥志鑫

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

yo.
fuck damn suay todae..
dono wat's wrong.
morning went to mit cong and all,
then after i lefr hse i 4gt to take my recepies.
nvm then after tt intend to go semb to get stuffs
in the end when i reach there the shop hv shifted.
then nvm after i work and reach home,
some1 cal matt i think added mi in msn and tok to mi
and sae lots of pervert things omg fuck
damn suay!!!
todae work with Mr seah xiao xin haa...
wanted to play with him but cant cuz working time.
hmm waiting for his call now stupid hun dan everytime is i wait for him
so shag tml gt to wake up at 7am T.T
luving u more n more each day!!

Monday, June 02, 2008

yo.

haa..ok let's see hmm..

sat went dancing n wushuing n ya as usual i injured n nw my ankle is damn pain.

trg was so so tiring as we hv started our rotinue for competition

sigh.

i'm collapsing soon.

sat after trg went straight to work as ping down crew

worked till 12plus with a attachement manager MR seah.

is fun workin with him.

after that went to np to settle mi camp thing then mit dear.

went to eat then went hm.

work up at 7 to go work omg was damn shag as i onli hv 2hrs of rest.

ok work wif my shuai ge wei lun haa.

is was so so shag.

kip on servicing in and our sales hit 4k plus

i nearly faint as my gastric was so pain n stuffy as mac was bombing.

it's fun working with seah and wei lun.

after work rush hm and went dance and i was so shag

after dance went to mit dear at YRR and ya saw siti and she was disturbing me.

after that went home

chatted with dear bt i half way fall asleep

sry dear..


so many things to do.

i'm stressing myself.

my gastric is getting more n more worse.

sigh.

i'm missing my past me.

no nid to chiong so hard.

i mis my past life everyday can go out slack or what.

everyday can slp more then 8hrs.

sigh bt now.

hais i feeling rather sad as laopo n mark is promoting tis month bt i haven even verified

sigh.

dono did i choose the right path

i wanted to be a manager

bt now i lost movitation

stressing.

dream-chaser gal




Sunday, June 01, 2008

yo.
long time nv updated.
been so so packed up with my schedule
work,dance,wushu,studies
sigh...going to break down soon.
argh...i wan to take a break bt i cant!!
argh.
my head is so so pain gt to rush alot of stuff.
this point of time i should be in my bed bt i cant!!
now rushing through my stuffs as i went to work just nw
argh..i'm pissed off by boss
fuck!!
confused!!
dono wherether to chiong for my work and gt verified or just give up on that.
OMG!!
so happy to hear frm ping2 that my shuai ge wl is cuming to work tml
woah!!
happy !!
shall update agn ba bye!!
enduring!!